My Brain....

A few months have gone by with a lot of stuff on my mind and finally I am able to put words to it all. God has been doing a lot of things in my life and working on me and who I am. Through these things I have really felt at peace reading the bible and understanding things. I have been realizing things about myself, also about fellowship/church.

First Fellowship:

I have grown up going to church my whole life, been to different ones than the one I grew up in. I have realized that the reason I have such a difficulty with going to church is because of few key things. You need connection, sincerity and desire in a church community. I want church different, not the same old ritualistic; this is the way church has to be business. I want a community of people fellowship, dig into the word, and agree to disagree (meaning just believe the bible and don’t get hung up on the things that throughout church history have divided God’s people). I don’t want the feel good, feelings, and skipping through daisies Christianity and Church. I follow God and the bible period! No exceptions! I don’t need some scholarly person or supposed theologian to give me their understandings of the Bible. Like it says in 1 Corinthians 1:10-17 No divisions, No I’m with this leader or this one it’s Jesus Christ period!

Second Understandings:

I have come to realize that God being way too much to wrap our human minds around I also believe the bible is the same way. We should read it, hear what God has to tell us, learn and try to understand as much as possible but I think God leaves a good amount of stuff in the bible to faith. I am sick of the Christian idea that words and phrases in the bible only have one meaning (the whole literal or symbolic business) have you ever thought that words and phrases can have multiple meanings?

Third Realizations about Myself:

When I focus on God, give everything to him, breathe, and read His word things are so peaceful and care free for me. I just feel light and not overburdened by life. I am grounded in my beliefs and who I am in Christ. Going through tough things, hating life and being frustrated about those things, I finally just gave it to God and listening to him I realize he is molding me into the Man of God he wants me to be.

When I heard this song, read the lyrics and really thought about what it was talking about it really hit me. We should think like this daily and same with church. This is only part of the lyrics.

We speak of fighting to resist this world

But what about the battle within us?

If we have chosen to live against the grain

Then why are we all facing the same way?

There is no difference between us and them

The Sound of Truth – As I Lay Dying